Carved

"stop trying to find meaning in everything"
'stop trying to find me....in......everything'

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I want to kiss you so badly I have to walk away to resist the temptation
And my skin is crawling
Every strand of hair electrified, standing on end
Because you called me a goddess before I was really even awake and
The snowflakes in this dream are like dry tears
Collecting in my eyelashes
I blink and the frame freezes
Your fingers red and raw and trembling
Holding a perfect sphere of crystal-clear ice
'I waited for you outside so it wouldn't melt...'
So cold your breath spills from between your lips in silver wisps
I tear my train ticket into a million pieces
And the shreds of paper flutter to the ground between us
Ink bleeding in rivers on the hard floor
I want to you to return every second I wasted falling in love with you
Return my calls and my letters and
Disappear into in distant memory
Because curled up on the floor at night
My stomach clenching and my lungs threatening to shatter
All that I can think about is the next way you're going to hurt me and
I will have to walk away
To resist the temptation
Of letting you.