Never

I loved a boy who gave me a necklace too soon in our relationship
Made of jade and he told me to hold my breath
Laying the cold stones against my skin and loving my shiver
As he explained the deep green would bring out my eyes and
Both were jewels so beautiful it stole his breath away

I loved a boy because I thought he had so much to teach me,
thought I had so much to learn
And he introduced me to his ex-girlfriend with pouty lips,
piercing silences and v-neck t-shirts
I stood there and felt my face flush as he squirmed under her stare
and didn't reach for my hand
Then when he left she asked me if he still talked about her
I hid behind a cage of my fingers
And she looked at me like I was the unappreciated answer
To his rhetorical addiction
I loved a boy who was everything I didn't need and never wanted
And I had far too many 'romantic' notions
that he attempted to live up to
Falling flat on his face,
tripping over poetry, guitars and
A soft touch
I loved a boy who spelt my name wrong
in the first letter he wrote me but
I forgave him, for the gentle desperation of being single
For longer than I thought I could bear
He eventually abandoned me after I convinced myself
I could drive him away and
Plotted to destroy whatever it was that we'd created

I loved a boy who gave me a necklace too soon in our relationship
Made of jade and he told me to hold my breath
Laying the cold stones against my skin and loving my shiver
As he explained the deep green would bring out my eyes but
When he called them jewels my soul clenched and
I didn't have the heart to tell him
My eyes
Were black...